story of the day

IMEL'S DIARY:

Dear Diary, for the last few days, Ondra had been so nervous and absent minded. He was not really paying attention to our discussions on wedding and family's coming details.
He did not seem caring too much about my ideas and feelings.
It had been unusual that he ate little and didnt take time to enjoy his meals. He was often in hurry and a bit rushed in everything.
What made me sad that he went out for few times at night anxiously and came home relaxed and happy. Did he has someone else? he made few sms and calls and chatting that he didnt tell me...

And what made me puzzled, two nights ago, he came home pretty late and looked so happy like in heaven and kissed me and hugged me and asked me to dance...
Did this other person give him a good time? better than me:-((??


ONDRA DIARY

Dear diary,
Now Im so relieved... I am happy and satisfied that Czech hockey team is the champion!! We have beaten those canadians and at last: world championship rests in us... yupeeee!!
I have been so worried about this for the last few days. I thought we couldnt make it.
I contacted few friends and watched the games. Everytime we beat other team, Im happy..coming home with a satisfaction that tomorrow Czech is still playing..
but everytime the next game will be started, Im worried again...so anxious about it...

Imel is not really fond of hockey and I bet if we boys make noise at home and scream and yell during all matches, it will bug her:-)
but why she was confused that I share my happiness coz Czech won? did she forget that tonight is the final? or she is not happy that I havent paid much attention on her and life lately?.. uhh........
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THE MORALE OF THE STORY IS: COMMUNICATION, COMMUNICATION, COMMUNICATION :-)

a precious letter from Seoul

As you all know that on May 21, I will abandon my single status and unite with a stranger:-),
this one is a private letter from an old friend who wishes us in an interesting way. I guess it is worthy to share it with you.

Ahoj Imedlo a Ondro *

as this email is addressed to both of you, I decided to write it in
English.
As we are all PolSci majors,I also decided to write it in a language
close to
our minds and hearts.
It was in Australia when we had "a little skirmish" during our
Aussie-tour. At
that time, I truly believed that one day everyone of us will go in
separate
directions,living a life far remote from one another.To my surprise,
a very
positive though I must add, you have kept your coalition alive and
flourishing; moreover,  now you are ready to seal this alliance off
with a
contract that knows no time restriction. I feel that your fight
against me was worthwhile:):):); I am also happy to have been there,
at the very beginning when your views of politics and life began
to converge in such a manner that you could not live withouth each
other anymore. Consequently, i am very unhappy that I won't be able
to wish you good luck on the day when your two individual identities
merge into one big PARTY (the Indonesian-Czech Party of
Friendship, Fun, Love and Children).
Thus, let me tell you from very far away the following:
I wish that your political agenda will always garner many supporters,
I wish that you stay at the top of citizens' popularity,
I wish that you remain faithful and loyal to your believes and
the fundamental ideas of liberalism and socialism:):):), and I wish
that together you can live a happy, healthy and fruitful life.
As a matter of fact, the chances are very high!!!!

All this and more from you comrade in exile in the Far-East,

ivo

* czech's way to call someone's name

SPIRIT OF THE DAY

Love in our society
Does not work so well
Because so many people
Fall in love with the physical
Then try to accept
What’s inside

When you fall in love
With what’s inside a person
Accepting the physical

(courtesy of Inne Steenhuis)

movies, movies, movies

watching movies is my sinful pleasure.... I cant get enough of it and I almost have seen all movies, you name it. I will write more about my recent views and experiences here. soon....

for this one, i dont mind globalisation at all:-)

For some old reasons, I do not support the idea of opening all channel of social and economic interconnectedness by the globalisation machine. However, I should revise a bit. I have been cherishing and praising the globalised know-how as now I can keep in touch with my old and new friends. Do you believe it that I can track and be updated with my old pals in Indonesia from Europe within seconds via f......r ? Do you believe it that I can get advice and support within minutes from friends in Holland in my m......y network? I even can call my mom anytime cheaper from Prague to Jakarta by internet?
not only that, I even can contact my family wherever they are by sms ing them via mobile.
Thanks to people who dedicated their lives for mitigating the humans hard times by improving technology and science. Thanks also to the capitalism which encompasses the spirit of invention and quality and price competitions among traders so that the word monopoly and state-owned unpopular.
(in this case, I think liberalism prevails). I cant imagine if state dominates and arranges which providers or companies can get in to sell high tech products.. In this case, you wont get better price and more options.
I cant also imagine if state screens and censors all media and closes down business foreign traders from capitalist countries. Hence, I could have not imagined if I foolishly lacked behind my friends who already network with many people virtually.

YOu disagree with me? it's OK, that is liberalism. You want to curse me for supporting non socialism form of governance? that's your choice, Im not your dictator:-). btw, how can you read my journal now if it's not because the globalised high tech liberalism:-)?

p.s.: I m not speaking of globalising high tech at extreme level. That will be a different topic.
btw, im still in ecstacy coz I had chit chat with old friends from high school, finally I met them, huurrrrayyyy!!!!!!

COUNTING DAYS TO THE BIG DAY

Guys, i wanna ask you few things:

1. how do you feel about getting married? opinions may vary
though, but i believe the majority will say that's one of the
most important moment of life, takes lots and lots thoughts
2. how do you feel about getting married abroad? you may
think it depends on the location right? but majority might be
concerned with the issue of local culture and resources
3. how do you feel about deciding to marry a foreigner&moving
to other country?for this, i will leave to multiply friends to answer:-)

I dont know your case guys, but my case was that I jumped right
into no.3 and experienced Prague at first and then straight to no.2
andfinally to no.1. strange? hmm... a bit..

I wanna share something to you. I would have never thought that someday I have to move from my country and marry a foreigner . I love my country and quite satisfied with that. However, when things got serious in campus life in Australia between me and this Czech, it became worthy to consider it.
When we both came home, as we forgot to anticipate, our parents were quite shocked, coz both have their own prejudices and views of foreigners. And I realized, o my goodness, he is a BULE!!! of course when we were in ozzie i didnt really realize the contrast coz it's quite multicultural nation.
But we worked on it and our parents worked on it too.
Im glad that my parents tried to understand and trust him. even to love him, also vice versa.

(break....let me drink coffee first:-))

Then, after view visits to each other's country, we both thought: hmmm.. it's not good to be separate. a healthy relationship requires presence and commitment. Things were considered and by the end I ought to come to Prague to experience and get a grip here.
Adapting to Czechs is not an easy task as they are quite different from other white people.
I also experienced some uneasiness due to my skin color and language in this european-minded and non-english speaking community.
Maybe the history and the culture made them but I would never give up on them. coz no matter what, my fiance is a Czech, a nice and charming Czech indeed, so there must be some nice and warm Czech too. (THIS IS ISSUE NO. 3:-))

Gradually I manage to befriend with as many as Czech I could and surprise surprise... now I have some good friends, really good friends like in Indo to whom I can be myself and share everything.
I believe in proactive actions:
if you never try, you'll never know, if you never give, you'll never receive.this philosophy
I hanged out with them, They shared things and sincerely supported and helped me in hard times. that's why it made us comfortable to try no,. 2: have a wedding here..

(sipping more coffee and munching my tiramisu....)

Getting married in office or official place like church is also a hassle coz as you all know that we need to prepare lots of paper and lots of money (either legal or illegal one:-)). Ffuih!! I have done it. but... wait a minute.... what about the visa? oh no, i had to have the new one as it expired before the real wedding day.
Thanks again to some Czechs who helped and advised us to how to process a new one. My embassy could not do anything coz it's Czech foreign affairs policy.
ffuihhh.... I could breath again..
but then what about the wedding itself? I always wanted a garden party if I got married.
But where? coz it's expensive to have it here, even the wedding party itself is expensive.
Again, my Czech friends helped and some even gave their garden for free for us and not only had they given the place, but also promised to help the preparation and cook.
They are even more excited than me , I supposed. hehehe.
Getting married abroad without your family support is quite daunting as you have to prepare things without their helps and opinions. when you want to make it perfect, you need at least some people who "speak your language" right? who understand your dream and ideas.

I m so touched when these Czech friends even take day off/leave on day before the wedding to help us in shopping and things related to wedding. Having friends who are willing to come to your wedding is already a nice thing. but to have friends who are willing to sacrifice one day of their leave rights is too much for me,.. they are so nice..and surprise surprise.. they are foreigners.. bule!! i told my parents about it and they are glad that even bule want to help me. so there is no more issues of nationality, what is left is : either they are your good friends or not.
that's why im confident to have no. 2 solved in Prague. What makes me even happier is that my family can come (hopefully) to attend the wedding and meet my beloved friends.

But guys, not only that! my friend from Oxford Uni in UK, one from Holland, one from Germany will come too... it's too good to be true. OK, maybe you will say: so what? if they have money, they can come.
Not really guys, even if you have money sometimes you dont have time or leave right to come to a friend's wedding.
Even if you have leave right to come, not many of you want to sacrifice and take one for coming to a friend's wedding. so it's still a honour to me that they want to come.

(finishing my tiramisu and ... hey!!! my coffee is gone, grrrrrr....who drank it!!!!!!!)

Anyway, then no.1 comes. I might not experience convinience as in Indonesia in terms of life, food, job, money, etc..) but definitely Im not longer worried too much of starting new life in Czech Republic. Coz I have my best friend here (my future husband:-)) and other good friends. it's enough for a start. I will let you know soon if I encounter more troubles:-).

p.s.: so if you tell me Czechs or white people are individualistic, I dont buy it. I have some proof that there are also some "human" Czech as well as Australian and there are also some "evil" Indonesian.

GUYS, WOULD YOU ALSO SHARE WITH ME YOUR DAILY LIVES WITH YOUR LOCAL FOREIGNERS AND YOUR WEDDING PREPARATIONS, SO I CAN LEARN FROM YOU ALL? THANKS FOR READING:-)

Never give up life

Lately, I have been experiencing a minor breakdown, partly due to
my starting new life in Europe. OK, not that awful, but it's quite
miserable for me as I have been acting not like me. 
When life is out of your control , when you deny your own faith that
your God actually control your life, life seems not treat you kindly 
(sorry, if this not the case for non believers:-)).
Well, Im sort of losing grip and huffy all the times and it confused others.

The phases of this condition are:
1.  getting pessimistic and thinking as loser
2   feeling continuous unhappiness and "badluck"
3.  perceiving others' lives better than ours
4.  jealousy
5.  easily offended and being grumpy
6.  self centred and self pity
7.  creating high expectations towards others.
8.  losing life spirit and feeling emptiness
9.  creating halucinations and evil thoughts
10. planning a murder and hurting your beloved ones
11. experiencing deeper sorrow and regret
12. incredibly losing your senses and heart
13. deciding to end your life
14. someone finds your diary and makes movie out of that
15. someone else earns fortune from your life story and your family
still suffer from your leaving and shameful acts.

Horror isnt it:-)?  Luckily I have only reached level 8
and in the process of manipulating the rest:-).

What I want to share is that in the midst of my struggling, a good friend
sent me this story of the day, which encourages me over and over again.

Life is about efforts,never ending one.Wthout struggles,life isnt worth a living. 


"At the age of seven, a young boy and his family were forced out of
their home. The boy had to work to support his family.
 At the age of nine, his mother passed away. When he grew up,
the young man was keen to go to law school, but had no education.
At 22, he lost his job as a store clerk.
At 23, he ran for state legislature and lost.
The same year, he went into business. It failed, leaving him with
a debt that took him 17 years to repay.
At 27, he had a nervous breakdown.
Two years later, he tried for the post of speaker in his state legislature.
He lost.
At 31, he was defeated in his attempt to become an elector.
By 35, he had been defeated twice while running for Congress.
Finally, he did manage to secure a brief term in Congress,
but at 39 he lost his re-election bid.
At 41, his four-year-old son died.
At 42, he was rejected as a prospective land officer.
At 45, he ran for the Senate and lost.
Two years later, he
lost the vice presidential nomination.
 At 49, he ran for Senate and lost again.
At 51, he was elected the President of the United States of America.
The man in question: Abraham Lincoln."

(courtesy of Yudith M Boroh)

Remember honey?

DO YOU REMEMBER, the first time we met we argued whether committing one's life to someone is worthy or not and since then often argued on all things?
DO YOU REMEMBER that I had wrong impression about you when you were being simply honest to me?
DO YOU REMEMBER that we always met in campus' computer lab and got "bored" of each other but always missed if one wasnt there?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you desperately thought you couldnt understand Asian woman, or even woman?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you were the nice guy in building D who always shared his food with people, especially throughout long and tiring day in computer lab?
DO YOU REMEMBER I said that you have taken me to fabulous trips which have made my staying in the Down Under interesting and memorable?
DO YOU REMEMBER that we both fell in love with each other definitely not at the first sight:-)?
DO YOU REMEMBER that we had often failed making our outdoor trip together but at least one has destined our lives since?
DO YOU REMEMBER that in the Island of sand, I started to trust you as a very good friend and felt comfortable near you?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you said an indicator of true soulmates is comfortable silent togetherness?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you said that I am the one:-)?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you were my gentleman in all trip we've been by treating me like princess?
DO YOU REMEMBER that we used to spend time by the riverbank, saw ferry passing by and stars glowing?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you gently asked me whether you could embrace me after few dates (and I was surprised of your politeness, even though i believed you desperately wanna kiss me:-))?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you patiently massaged my tired feet after my badminton play?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you held and warmed my hands everytime they turned to cold as always?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you "motherly" took care of my dried lips and face with your magic Bolivian cream?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you believed that you love me when u were on Sydney's highest tower and promised your heart to me?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you always had suprised me with your unsual gifts?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you brought me honey all the way from New Zealand just because you said that I am your honey?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you hugged me so tight at the airport and promised me that we will meet again and be together forever, no matter what, no matter when (all that cliche thing which is not that cliche at all)?
DO YOU REMEMBER that you have taught me about facing my own demons, persevering other's weaknesses, and cherishing good and awful moments?
DO YOU REMEMBER proposing me in the high church tower because you thought that was a romantic place?
DO YOU REMEMBER that we have never refrained from debating as well as we have never refrained from loving and accepting each other?

and the list goes on......

HERE WE ARE IN THE SAME PLACE AND WILL BE IN THE SAME "LOVE BOAT" TOGETHER SINCE 21 MAY. YOUR LOVE HAVE NOT FAILED (hopefully not:-))

I ALMOST FORGET ALL THESE THINGS AND SELDOM APPRECIATE YOU ANYMORE FOR YOUR KINDNESS
I ONLY WANNA SAY : GOOD LORD! I CANT ASK MORE. I HAVE YOU.