Never give up life

Lately, I have been experiencing a minor breakdown, partly due to
my starting new life in Europe. OK, not that awful, but it's quite
miserable for me as I have been acting not like me. 
When life is out of your control , when you deny your own faith that
your God actually control your life, life seems not treat you kindly 
(sorry, if this not the case for non believers:-)).
Well, Im sort of losing grip and huffy all the times and it confused others.

The phases of this condition are:
1.  getting pessimistic and thinking as loser
2   feeling continuous unhappiness and "badluck"
3.  perceiving others' lives better than ours
4.  jealousy
5.  easily offended and being grumpy
6.  self centred and self pity
7.  creating high expectations towards others.
8.  losing life spirit and feeling emptiness
9.  creating halucinations and evil thoughts
10. planning a murder and hurting your beloved ones
11. experiencing deeper sorrow and regret
12. incredibly losing your senses and heart
13. deciding to end your life
14. someone finds your diary and makes movie out of that
15. someone else earns fortune from your life story and your family
still suffer from your leaving and shameful acts.

Horror isnt it:-)?  Luckily I have only reached level 8
and in the process of manipulating the rest:-).

What I want to share is that in the midst of my struggling, a good friend
sent me this story of the day, which encourages me over and over again.

Life is about efforts,never ending one.Wthout struggles,life isnt worth a living. 


"At the age of seven, a young boy and his family were forced out of
their home. The boy had to work to support his family.
 At the age of nine, his mother passed away. When he grew up,
the young man was keen to go to law school, but had no education.
At 22, he lost his job as a store clerk.
At 23, he ran for state legislature and lost.
The same year, he went into business. It failed, leaving him with
a debt that took him 17 years to repay.
At 27, he had a nervous breakdown.
Two years later, he tried for the post of speaker in his state legislature.
He lost.
At 31, he was defeated in his attempt to become an elector.
By 35, he had been defeated twice while running for Congress.
Finally, he did manage to secure a brief term in Congress,
but at 39 he lost his re-election bid.
At 41, his four-year-old son died.
At 42, he was rejected as a prospective land officer.
At 45, he ran for the Senate and lost.
Two years later, he
lost the vice presidential nomination.
 At 49, he ran for Senate and lost again.
At 51, he was elected the President of the United States of America.
The man in question: Abraham Lincoln."

(courtesy of Yudith M Boroh)